Theres no differnce between love and hate We're all satans bait We're like puppets on a string Are only passion is fashion War is everything We kill each other We kill ourselves The hills of life go up and down God is evil God is just Greed pride envy Inside each of us theres a voice Wether we listen or not We pray we wont get caught We play our games And cheat each time Remorse fear hate In a perfect world We forget and forgive We live and let live We wish apon stars We idolize the things that are wrong We live in shelter from one another We hade from ourselves .....
Oye, I am so full. Its bout time they feed us some decent food. I went to a work meeting today, my day off, figures. Thats just my luck. Ok enough with the complaining. But I do feel like I'm going to burst. What a weird night last night. I hope he doesnt plan on being mean to me everytime he has a problem. Oh well, guess I deserve it. I'm sleepy. I slept all morning too. Although I think the bags under my eyes are gone. Nope guess not. Stress maybe. One day off a week isnt enough. We should, once in awhile, get two days off in a row. Well atleast I'm not doing seven a row again. I suspose, I should get another Hitchcock in before he gets done. Bye.
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My tears are falling As I sort through thoughts of you Nothing could have been said To sterolize the pain To make it seem more true Now I pull my hair and scream As I think it all through I have tried so hard to let it go To make it go away I always believed you would hold me Then you let go and I started to sway I grip my hands tightly And whisper your name Knowing deep inside Things will never be the same How could you just let go like that Never taking time to rethink Not once looking back Its not so easy Reopening your mind I thought I had a peice of your heart But it was your soul I kept Each moment that ticks I fall farther insane In my heart you will always remain Knowing I cant have you back Feeling motionless and dead I wonder what it could have been I close my eyes and breathe in How could you just let go like that Never taking time to rethink Never once looking back ......
Hi there. Been hella busy lately. Working a full time and a part time just to make ends meet. Fun Fun. But all in all life is fair. I dont get near enough sleep. I'm always tired and dragging by the end of the day. Mmmmm tacos for dinner. I'm so hungry. Though lately I'm always hungry. No not prego, I think its from all the stress. Maybe I just like to eat. Anyways nice to talk to you all agian. C-ya.
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Hi Hi everyone. Hows everybody? I'm ok, find out if I get the job I've been wanting tomorrow. Things have settled down a lil between me and the boy toy. Hopefully they stay this way, for awhile atleast. Read a really good book the other day. It was called Firefly Lane. A book about everlasting friendship. A good tear jerker. Ive been reading alot lately. Passes the time quickly. Had one of my wisdom teeth removed yesterday. I cant believe how hard it is to find a dentist with my insurance. Its either a "We dont take that insurance" or "it's a two year waiting list." I went into a walk in clinic and sat there for a couple hours. At least its gone and the pain has subsided. I am deathly afriad of dentists. I was crying in the waiting room. It was awful but at least its done and over with. I'm so bored. See ya all later.
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Hi there. Nother huge fight with the boy friend. Whats wrong with me? I'm so depressed lately I dont know what to do with myself. I went to the dotor to get medicine for it but its gotta be pre approved by my insurance and thats going to take a couple days not to mention then a little while before the things start to work, if they even do. Usually I can make myself feel better about things after a while but I just cant seem too. I'm so mad at myself. I packed all my stuff and left. Why do I do these things. Now if we do get back together things are gonna be differnt. I doubt for the better either. But thats part of my problem I constantly think about the negitive. Gotta go talk later.
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Only a moment to say how I feel So little time for us to begain to heal So many times unexplained lust So many words left unspoken between us If given only a moment Would it be apporiate to say that I cared Would you mind if I said I was scared I never knew just what to say I just wanted things to be okay Now your gone and I'm all alone I relized what I should have said took a little to long ....
Another one of my poems I dont really care for. I just want you to know that before it ends I do care. Mind you I hope it doesnt. Anyways... Things are ok. Rough but ok. Its soooo quiet here. No fighting, no yelling, no running of baby feet. Defenitly going to take some time to get used to. I almost want to turn spounge bob on or something. Well not much to say right now. See ya all later.
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