I have to write
It doesnt matter what
Somewhere along the way
I must of gone the wrong way
I tired to scream
But no one heard me
I tried to cry
But the tears wouldnt come
I guess it doesnt really matter
The thoughts come in bursts
Then slowly slip away
I try to contian them
Sort through them
Make sense of them
But nothing makes sense
I slide through the days
With a smile painted on my face
Consuming everything
Feeling helpless and alone
Sometimes I hope
That someone can hear me .....

Its been along time since I've written any new poetry. It's hard sometimes to keep all these thoughts to myself, its harder to share them though. Haha I make no sense. As usual. When I try to talk nothing comes out right. If I cant make sense of it how can anyone else. How does that saying go?.... I dont remember. Our game sucked today. We lost 18-4. Hopefully our last game wasnt the only one were gonna win. My legs are sore. Thats what I get for not streching before practice. Oh well, lesson learned. I miss Josh. I've been really thinking about moving. A change would be good, on the other hand i dont want to end up doing something I might later regret. I really like him obviously but I dont want to... I dont know... overwhelm him with my kids and all. My family alone is something to be desired. Not that i dont love them or anything. I'm sleepy. I think that I overslept today. Then again I think that every Sunday. If someone wouldnt tell me to keep going back to sleep everytime I'm there, considering we dont see near enough of each other.